Memory block

I don’t know my mind is just so clouded right now I’ve tried to write it all out but every time I do I just get to a block. It seems like I can’t just focus on one problem in my head. Part of the reason it won’t come out is I look at a picture of my beautiful daughter and I just don’t care about negative thoughts and she makes me smile. She pulls me through a lot of my tough nights along with this same keyboard I’m sitting behind right now.  When I look at her it just seems like the rest of my problems don’t even matter because God has blessed me with a child who is healthy and so active already in the almost  5 months she’s been alive.  I just get lost in the thought of her sitting on her mother’s lap eating pears, bananas, or sweet potatoes and before the spoon even leaves the jar her mouth is open and waiting. But don’t take too long though she will let you know she’s ready for more.  One night we had a whole conversation about nothing at all seeing as she can’t talk, but she was responding to everything I said and moving her little leg and arms followed by a scream and a huge smile. Sometimes she would spit up a bit but just keep on going. Children alone can take you back and make you remember the time where all you had to do was eat sleep go to school and play outside. If we only knew then what we know now would you really want to change anything?  All those great moments you have you may not but then again you wouldn’t even know any different. Or would you?  I can say my daughter is enough to make glad I didn’t know a thing coming up. There really aren’t too many things in life that I think I would really say are worth standing up and being proud of. But I will say that my daughter is definitely the one I will stand on a mountain top and yell to the world. I really had so much more to say tonight but it wouldn’t come out of my head and I just kind of came up with this. It’s not something I usually do or even thought I would be posting on here but hey sometimes you got to just go with the flow. Not that it matters ha, I only got two followers anyways but it’s still good to just let out what I can.